It's over

The old swing sits tired,
I look out my window at the swing.
My mind is overtaken with that night,
When we we’re 14.
Four years ago.
The tears now slowly slip form my eyes.
I tried codling you,
I loved you like no other could,
Yet because of her I never got the chance to show you,
I wasn’t strong enough I never was.
Wrestling the gun out of your hands,
Was a worthless attempt at making things better.
That’s all I wanted
You sat on the swing gently rocking,
That smile you had scared me,
I could see it in your eyes,
You had convinced yourself that this was the only way out
It didn’t matter what I said at this point,
Your mind was made up.
The pain would finally stop,
I can still hear you telling me to turn around and cover me ears.
I stubbornly shook my head
I wanted you to stay,
Forever and always like you promised me.
You gently grabbed my cheeks and pulled me close,
You kissed me ever so gently,
Whispering I love you my angel, I will never be far,
You’ll turn around when you troubled and see my face.
When the tears seam endless you’ll
Take a breath that suddenly fills you with courage,
I wont stop loving you.
You nodded and I listened
I turned around and covered my ears
Hoping this was a dream and I would soon awake in my bed safe
The sound of the one shot only confirmed that this was in face reality
The scream escaped my lips effortlessly.
It was over,
His life,
As well as mine.