The Sequel - "Make It Out Alive"

It's over

The old swing sits tired,
I look out my window at the swing.
My mind is overtaken with that night,
When we we’re 14.
Four years ago.
The tears now slowly slip form my eyes.
I tried codling you,
I loved you like no other could,
Yet because of her I never got the chance to show you,
I wasn’t strong enough I never was.
Wrestling the gun out of your hands,
Was a worthless attempt at making things better.
That’s all I wanted
You sat on the swing gently rocking,
That smile you had scared me,
I could see it in your eyes,
You had convinced yourself that this was the only way out
It didn’t matter what I said at this point,
Your mind was made up.
The pain would finally stop,
I can still hear you telling me to turn around and cover me ears.
I stubbornly shook my head
I wanted you to stay,
Forever and always like you promised me.
You gently grabbed my cheeks and pulled me close,
You kissed me ever so gently,
Whispering I love you my angel, I will never be far,
You’ll turn around when you troubled and see my face.
When the tears seam endless you’ll
Take a breath that suddenly fills you with courage,
I wont stop loving you.
You nodded and I listened
I turned around and covered my ears
Hoping this was a dream and I would soon awake in my bed safe
The sound of the one shot only confirmed that this was in face reality
The scream escaped my lips effortlessly.
It was over,
His life,
As well as mine.

Because of me

I held you when she broke your heart.
I was the one to make things better,
But the way your eyes followed her,
Made me think that I failed.
I kept quiet, hoping you would see,
The truth behind my actions,
Yet I faded into the shadows till that night.
Yet again she unknowingly crushed your heart.
I was the one once again the one to put it back together,
This time things would be different,
With a deep breath I quickly spilled out my feelings,
My love,
My hope,
My dreams.
I waited tears steaming waiting for the rejection,
That would surly come.
You looked down at me smiling foolishly
And said yes.
Finally I know that your heart is safe,
Finally I know that you’ll be happy.
Because of me

Dare

The gun slides on the floor through the raising flames
I should have listened to her worry's
Her pain
Now it's to late
She is now no more
Her heart ach complete
Her cuts
Her scares
Her pain so deep
gone
Just as she wanted.
But not the way it should've ended.
She had wished it to be gone yes.
but this morning she woke up smiling for the first time thinking of him.
But because of a dare she will never truly know what its like to love, to be happy.

Darkness

I sit in the corner flashlight by my side as the light slowly fades and the darkness closes in.
I sit and I think of a way to win.
This battle is one usually done alone.
But for me i know
That as the first tear begins to slip,
You'll be running in with grace,
You'll sweep me off my feet,
and carry me away.

The Wind

With the breeze comes the memories,

They Ride it like a dragon and it's warrior refusing to let you escape my mind even for a moment.

They come engulfing me with your touch, your scent.

Just when i think you have left my mind for a peaceful moment with out you i open my eyes,

And then I see the stars twinkling like the ones in your eyes,

I hear the children's giggles, and i think of our jokes,

I see a couple holding hands, and i remember the times you make me smile when 

I was down.

I run to my closed of sanctuary, trying to erase you from my mind,

But the wind follows me, with you on its back.

Angel No More.

The  windy path seams no to him.
He's walked it time and time again,
Each time a new topic stuck in his head,
Sometimes he'd skip and sing while he walked.
Today he struggles to stay on his feet,
He struggles from collapsing on the path in the middle of no where,
Breaking down, screaming out her name.
It's all he had left gone,
Why cant he go back and save her?
Why couldnt he stop her heartbreak, save the one true angel left.
Now he doesnt want to live, just to see her face once more,
Be in the same room,
Hold her,
KIss her,
Its all gone..
he drops the small ring of gold made out of construction paper on the ground,
leaving her behind.

My supernova(:

He walks away just as her heart hits the floor.
The tiny sards bouce around glimmer in the light.
Her star walks up silently picks up the peices and walks away without a word.
She sits alone now.
She hears footsteps and looks up eagrly to see her star walking towards her holding something behind his back.
She jumps up and hugs him.
He hands her a her heart back...
He kisses her cheeks and walks away.

The truth.

The way he walks towards me, I can tell already that something is wrong.
The way he’s fall on the floor instead of bouncing from one friend to the other.
He slowly inches closer.
I try and pretend like nothing is wrong that I am fine.
He stands next to me. Silent.
Everyone else passes by unnoticing.
H slips something in my hand before finally walking away.
I turn disappointed. I don’t even bother to look at what he gave me.
It was just a piece of paper.  What meaning could it have?
    I can’t believe I’m about to do this.
    She won’t say yes I’m sure of it.
    How am I even going to ask her?
    I don’t even have enough money to buy her what she truly deserves,
    A sparkling diamond ring.
I go home speaking to no one.
Why would I want to?
I Know what that note says, I know it.
I knew he was going to dump me.
I don’t need to look at the note I already know what it says.
I thought we were meant to be.
I knew it wouldn’t last. God I was foolish to even assume that.
    It’s been three days. She hasn’t even talk to me.
    I knew I was rushing it. Why would I think that she would say yes?
    I knew she didn’t love me as much as I loved her.
    I knew it.
They part their way. Confused and hut.
The note it self only had the words would you marry written in a shaky hand.
She soon forgot about the note. Moved on.
Him on the other hand, never forgot about her. He tried but never succeed she always seamed to wiggle her way back.

Lasting Impressions

The wind meanders thro his thick layers.
Giving his hair a carless touch of style.
His are brighter then the sun but yet they are full of darkness.
His mouth always smileing,
When people are looking.
Broad shoulders.
He would make any mother proud and he did.
He ws his fathers pride and his monther's joy.
I reach out to hold his hand one last time.
Then the happieness the sadness in his eyes whisp away with a quiet whisper.
His features fade,
And soon im standing alone.

one more

The breeze makes the  curtain sway.
The weathered tarnished hardwood floor creeks.
As the sun sets, an oumnios darkness engulfs the room.
The dresser in the corner sits unused in years.
The bare mattress in the middle of the room lays bare.
The door creeks open.
The group of three, Kristi, Zach and Eddie

The circle they sit in is dimly light by a candle in the center.
Zach dragged them all here.
Why? A surprise.
The night was shockingly cold compared to the day.
They seamed to shrink in size in the room as the night wore on.
Zach being Zach wouldn't tell the couple he dragged her with promises of this night being the best they could ever ask for.
Finally after being in the room on the deserted house for over an hour Zach finally, starts his story:
The 70's. A normal family  of  3 lived in the small town, just barley getting by. They struggled with getting food, forget a t.v.a car. Their young daughter then didn't realize how the family had it. The were just sitting down to dinner that Thursday night. Their money troubles weight heavily on their minds. Chelsea bounced around eagerly, but stopped as if frightened. Her parents didn't noticed their minds were preoccupied. The Breaking of glass made Chelsea's parents freeze mid-sentence. Their trance was only broken by the screams of their daughter. Her mom runs to her but she's stopped by an unknown intruder. The family was brutally murdered that night.
Kristi was no where near amused with the fictional scary story.
And of course here comes the part where Zach tells them that this is the very house they were murdered in.
Right on cue, Zach whispers "and this is the very house where i took place"
Eddie gets up with a sigh, of course he would waste a perfect Saturday on this.
He helps Kristi up. and checks the time. Midnight exactly.
Now time to head home.
Zach sensed that his aduience was displeased with his story telling.
So he dared them to spend the night here.
Eddie rolled his eyes and headed for the door.
Foolishness nothing but foolishness.
Eddie and Kristi walked home hand in hand.
Zach sat in the room watching his candle dwindle.
He awakes slowly,unsure where he is.
He hears a footstep, he sits up and laughs, he knew they'd come back.
He runs eagerly to greet them.
He turns the corner. His heart drops and face turns white.
The small white thing before him simply stares back, unfazed.
He Takes a step back preparing to run.
She walks, half runs purposely towards him now.
One more soul for the house to claim.

Crash

Their hands slowly slip out of grasp.
The notes passed in class slowly dwindle.
The sunsets now go unwatched from his front porch.
Late night whispers stop.
The ring in his top dresser drawer goes unworn.
Their dreams and hopes of life together, now will never happen.
The rain drops, now lost their dancers.
Her unborn child will never, run in a field of flowers,
Never fall in love.
They were simply driving home.
Now it's over.
Drunk Driver.

The end

The world is blured,
Her tears shater like glass when the hit the ground.
He paces outside her door, awaiting the worse

 The door is locked she is  sure  of it.

She gasps at the coldness of the metal against her skin.

His heart races, he knows whats about to happen.
He couldnt stop his girlfriend, he cant lose his baby this way.
 She pauses hearing his footsteps and the shadow underneath the door.

She can only look. He cant stop me she thinks

She screams hopefully for the last time.

He rushes in and clapsess on the floor next to her.
He's crying now drowning in what he can only hope to be lies.
  The world outside that room continues.
Inside the room to stand still.

Van Meter(:

Feelings poor out of a pile of nothingness.
Walking through the halls.
Dodging streamlining jewels,
Bypassing the talk of money.
I walk past it all never looking back.
There is no holding back.
Doors swing open,
Cold air rushes, only pushing me forward.
I walk away from the drama, those fools.
I leave them behind.
They're now the worthless pieces of nothingness held down btu the empty heart conversations and usless arguments.
Im gone free to fly away like the magical shining piece of dust i am.

M.A.R.S

His hair falls across his eyes,
No please i beg him
But i know he must.
He stands. I silently move out of his way.
I see his body quivering, it's summer so I know he's not cold.
I only look on. My stomach is in knots.
I knew it would end not like this.
Not with us both in pain.
Not with us both in tears.
I miss escaping earth and traveling all the way to mars.
But i know you'll be back.
Just look at the moon and that's where you'll find me.

Darla

Late night talks.
Late night crys.
Late night laughs.
I love you more then you know.
The memories of our talks remind me a sisters who are supposed to be sleeping but instead the stay up late whispering secrets under the covers.
I love that your just a mesage away.
I feel safe when i talk to you,
I know that you'll keep my secrets till the end.
Your kids are the cutest and I love them as my own.
I will always be there to pull you out of the pit of dispear.
I will always be there no mater what it is you i would give yo my last dime and my last shred of clothing if you needed it.

Seth.

Tears vanish, smiles emerge.
Hugs are exchanged more then once.
Pokes, lamas and moo-ing ducks.
Your the one that knows my past,
You helped me plan my future.
I trust you with my life.
Your my life.
Without you life would be boring and painful.
You make me feel beter when everyone else feels like putting me down.
We joke we cheer.
Nothing could make me hate him.
Fuck with my big brother and you die 0_0

Ellis.

The simple string bracelet hits the ground,
The force rocks my world,
All i can see now is his back walking away blured by tears.
Those months flash before my eyes,
He acts as tho it was a bad dream or something.
How could those mean so little to him but so much to me?
I must've said something wrong.
I stand confident that i can fix this.
I walk behind him and say i can change,
He spins around with the power of man even tho he's just a boy.
The slap rings in my ears long after.
I sit in the ground stunned.
How could he?
I was simply trying to help.
Maybe it was something i did!
I try again..
This time he screams  at me.
I was simply trying to help,
How could i do wrong by helping?
I ask no one has an a idea.
I know i should stay away but i can.
There's something about him.
I dont understand.

true love

Rain hits the ground
Splashing carelessly around
I try to dodge the rain drops
Soon im soak
You look on from where your stand
I beg you to join me
You shake your head no as i pull you out
Your eyes scream out for more
The rain slowly stops as we we dance in the moon light
We sit on the wet ground and look up above
Feeling so small under all the shimmering stars
Glistening, teasing us till morning
Where i awake in your arms
Smiling up at you
Forgetting the rest of the world for one night
Together at last after waiting
For a a life time
Tasting the forbidden fruit
Fighting for what we knew was true love

cute... no words of mine could say it

'Cute' by Stephen Jerzak


You're eyes are blue like the ocean and baby I'm lost out at sea

Did the sun
just come out or did you smile at me

I've been trying to ask you but I can't
seem to speak

Was it love at first sight cuz I walked by last week

I'm
singing Fa la la la la

Your lips look so lonely would they like to meet
mine

You are the one that I've been hoping to find

You're so sweet that you
put Hersheys out of business

Can I have a photograph to show my friends that
angels truly exist

I'm singing Fa la la la la

You're as cute as a
button
The things you do sure are something
Are you running out of breath
from running through my head all night

Is there something in your eye, oh
wait, it's just a sparkle

Can you get a little closer and help me just a
little bit

I scraped my knee fallin' for you

But baby a kiss will do

I'm
singing Fa la la la la la

You're as cute as a button
The things you do sure
are something
Are you running out of breath from running through my head all
night

I'm falling in love and wouldn't I like to think so

And every night I
look at the stars out my window

And I hope I can see the one that we saw
together

It was just you and me and honestly I'll look for that star
forever

You're as cute as a button

The things you do sure are
something

Are you running out of breath from running through my head all night

the moon

the sun shines bright
but i only want it to go away its a pain
i wait all day jus for the sun to go down
so i can see our beloved moon
the stars that mean the world to me

Together

sand blows into the craters
erasing us forever
waves crash
we dont notice
the sun goes down
darkness settles
we simply hold each other close
our thoughts are non-existent
but yet sitting here forever seams so realistic

her last day

he stands all alone now when merely seconds ago right next to him there was life
he begged she cried and said she had to,
why? because the world would be better that way
that was the end, just like that now shes gone he's alone
he holds the gun the thing that made this possible his very own gun
he looked and saw she had put two bullets in
it be a shame to let it go to waste